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i have no justifications for why i haven’t been there for you. our friendship was always important to me but it was also always difficult. i know you need someone who is strong. i know you need someone who can guide you. but the truth is, i’m lost too. the cards you have been dealt this year are heartbreaking beyond words. never will i understand how you are feeling. never will i be able to make it better. and despite wanting to comfort you, i keep my distance. i do this selfishly, knowing that i won’t have to risk making it worse or saying the wrong thing. but also knowing that you are going through hell alone. it’s a weight. nowhere near as heavy as the weight you’re carrying. and i’m sorry. i don’t want either of us to continue this on and off rollercoaster of being inseparable to being distant enemies. so all i can do is pray from a distance. i’m sorry for everything. i know you’re strong enough to get through this. even without me. you are in my thoughts every day. never forget the conversations we had about accomplishing our dreams. we’ve always known we were bigger than this place. and you are. i’ll see you at the top.
“How was it possible to be afraid and in love… The two things did not go together. How was it possible to be afraid, when the two of them grew stronger together every day? And every night. Every night was different, and every morning.”
― Patricia Highsmith, The Price of Salt
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euo:
No Reasons To Be Sorry
Isa Gueye
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"I want to be all that I am capable of becoming." Katherine Mansfield
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"
I have never believed in time,
but it pulls at my skin
while I learn how to love you
from afar.
Maybe we are meant to sleep apart.
Windows open and sheets off,
sweating in a bed alone.
Loving you has been
a little too humid lately.
Loving you has felt a little like
shrinking.
If my distance had somehow
mended itself into convenience
maybe then,
my lips would be on yours.
But instead, my heart
swells into my mouth
and tips over.
These are the days when I wish
to forget the way you fit
into all of my universes.
These are the days when I wish
to always remember.
Days when I am
selfish enough to wonder
if you look for me
while you feel her
sitting close to you.
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when i think back on the countless panic attacks i had growing up, i remember always trying to reach out to someone for help and even when no one was there, i would still always try. i guess part of getting older is crying in silence.. i don’t want anyone to comfort me.. humans don’t comfort me anymore.. i’m always paranoid people will fuck me over and it’s exhausting. being alone is safe.
truth is i used to have a lot of people who cared about me
and i’ve now managed to push every single one of them away
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"If you are silent about your pain, they’ll kill you and say you enjoyed it." Zora Neale Hurston, Their Eyes Were Watching God
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